Phases Of The Moon and Phases Of Fertility


Tuesday, October 31, 2006

All Hallow's Tuesday Twosome

A Halloween Meme…

Are you scared?1. Do you celebrate Halloween? Explain: No; it's not something big in Oz. As a Pagan I celebrate a fertility festival around the spring equinox that falls close to Halloween, what some people celebrate in February. If you consider Halloween a Harvest Festival then I celebrate it in Autumn close to the Autumnal Equinox, around Easter (or Eostre's) festival. The opposite of the seasons in the Western Hemisphere applies of course.

2. Do you hand out candy and/or go door-to-door trick-or-treating?

No; but if kids came to the door I would hand out candy; double headed snakes this year.

3. What was the scariest Halloween costume you had and why did you pick out that costume?

My favourite costume was an out of work fortune teller that I wore for a y2k arArmageddon themed party. I carried a sign saying "Will predict for food". I also had a "drug tester" costume for a Sydney olOlympics theme at work in a nursing home; complete with specimen jar and badge saying "Drugs tested free". Sadly; no Halloween Costumes.

4. Do you prefer a “trick" or “treat”? Explain: Treat. 'Cos I'm nice. *grin*

5. Do you think Halloween is scarier now than it was when you were younger? Explain:

Sorry; I'm not really in a situation to comment on that.

Best Oppinion Piece I Have Read On Shiek Halili.

Once again Miss Politics has put it better than I ever could hope surrounding the continuing violence against women. I'm linking here so that people can read this.

Random Rumblings And Follow Ups.

Meely with Sausage; Ballerina costume.

Saturday was great fun. It was also very very cold. I never made it to the Halloween party as I ended up working ridiculous hours over the weekend; being run down resulted in me being so run down as to be in recovery mode still. Lots of Boi Hugs and rest while watching "Chinese Food TV".

Kat-ism explained: Chinese Food TV is TV that satisfies while your watching it but leaves you craving real content afterwards. Pizza TV is that guilty pleasure you get from watching a show that you know has no redeemable features but you enjoy anyway. It was suggested I try to explain some of my references in case people who don't know me read this.

Back to Saturday: Meely had been in hospital all night due to dehydration. She was having a ball at her party, though, and the only sign she'd been sick was some weight loss.

Peek-a-boo With Mitchell; Elmo Costume.

I enjoyed being able to hold Mitchell for most of the day; covered in vomit and all! It was great. My mum thinks this is a sign that I am ready for kids when nappies and chuck make me cry for not having a child of my own.

I wouldn't swap the family that were at this party for anything. It took me a while to realise just how lucky I was to have them. They have proven my foundation while organising things, going through IVF, etc. In a few cases this surprised me; but I am happy to be wrong when it comes to these things.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Six Songs and a Saying

OK; the aim today is to vent about blog content. Fortunately there are not too many people in the bloggosphere who fit the first four categories.

Song One: Piggies by the Beatles.

Have you seen the little piggies
Crawling in the dirt
And for all the little piggies
Life is getting worse
Always having dirt to play around in.

Dedicated to those who feel life is about running others down to make themselves feel better.

Song Two: Kiss Me, Son Of God by TMBG.

I built a little empire out of some crazy garbage
Called the blood of the exploited working class
But they've overcome their shyness
Now they're calling me Your Highness
And a world screams, "Kiss me, Son of God"

I destroyed a bond of friendship and respect
Between the only people left who'd even look me in the eye
Now I laugh and make a fortune
Off the same ones that I tortured
And a world screams, "Kiss me, Son of God"

This one goes out to those who feel that what they say, no matter how offensive, cannot be wrong if they have been around for a long time and have lots of people who read them.

Song Three: Ain't No Man Righteous by Bob Dylan.

Look around, ya see so many social hypocrites
Like to make rules for others while they do just the opposite.

A song for all those people revoicing others oppinions as there own and then criticising others for doing it.

Song Four: Sex and Drugs and Rock'n'Roll by Ian Drury & The Blockheads.

Here's a little piece of advice
You're quite welcome it is free
Don't do nothing that is cut price
You know what that'll make you be
They will try their tricky device
Trap you with the ordinary
Get your teeth into a small slice
The cake of liberty
For the people who blindly follow everything they read as gospel and don't think for themselves.

Song Five: Funk You by DAAS.

Sexual psychology fascinates me more than art or science

For all those lonely and not so lonely souls out there who explore all aspects of their nature online.

Song Six: Don't Give Up by Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush

Don't give up
cos you have friends
Don't give up
You're not beaten yet
Don't give up
I know you can make it good

What I'd like for all people to remember when the hurts others heap upon them become too much.

If you guys are going to be throwing beer bottles at us, at least make sure they're full.Dave Mustaine

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Happy Birthday Baby Girl

The gorgeous Amelia K turns one this weekend.

Meely was the first baby I held post the IVF starting and our first harvest not working. When we lost "Ziggy" at the beginning of the year I dreamt about Meely. This little girl; along with her beautiful cousins Josh and Mitchell; gives me hope.

Whenever I am around them they are full of hugs. Josh (4) is now in Benalla with his mum and little brother Mitchell (about 3 months). I miss the playing and stuff we did when he was around the corner. He became a substitute son for me while the Boi and I were trying first time around.

As hard as the IVF is; and being around inconsiderate morons who think "SO, when are you two going to have kids?" is the height of conversational skill makes it harder; I love the time I get to spend with my grand niece and nephews. (Yep, grand; my sister is 16 years older then me; her eldest daughter is 5 years younger. My nieces and nephews are getting married and having kids.) The unconditional love they show is one of those little reminders that life is not as bad as it feels.

That's one thing that no one can take away; no matter how much they try.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Belated Tuesday Twosome.

Time Management:

1. Two things you procrastinate the most about: Homework; as in 2 major assignments due this Friday. Going to the gym; this happens in stops and starts. The stops are hard for me to restart.

2. Two things that take priority in your time management: Spending time with my partner; in IVF you can lose sight of the other person so for me this is my biggest priority. Books; reading the latest by my favourite authors.

3. Do you usually arrive on time or late? About ten minutes early.

4. Do you get annoyed when other people arrive late or you really don’t care? I get more worried then annoyed, but I do care. With mobile phones it doesn't take much to let people know you'll be late. Ten minutes is OK but after that it starts to say that you realy don't care about other people.

5. What two things would you change/delete about your daily schedule in order for you to have more “down” time? Commercials from the shows I enjoy; TV and Radio. I'd like a genie for the housework, fairly obvious.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Sunday, October 22, 2006

My Fur Children; Warning - Cat Blogging.

This is Nutbag and this is Bosco.

Nutbag (Left) was the Boi's before we met; he called her that as he thought it would be what he'd refer to her as most often. She gets Pusscat Magillicatty more often then anything else.

Bosco (Above) was abandoned by neighbours of a friend who couldn't have anymore cats at their place; so he came with name attached. He's the One Cat we are "saving" at the moment. If we hadn't taken him in he probably would of ended up at the RSPCA and euthanized. Bosco shows signs of previous abuse but is slowly coming around to us; as long as we don't touch his stomach he's fine. He gets Orange Boi more often then Bosco.

OK, so way TMI on the cats. Why? We spent the day surrounded by small children with some people making comments about "when will you be having kids" to other couples in front of us. Seriously; when will people accept not everyone wants kids or can have them? So instead of ranting unfairly about "breeders" I'll just quietly post about the cats. Once again down part of mood cycle; results in biased rants that disregard anything other than my own current preoccupation with having a child of my own.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Checking in on reality

Sometimes our reality checks come t the darnedest time. The lady who always serves me at Heidi Rose asked me why I was nervous about the up coming nuptials.

It comes down to my fear of how one or two people will judge the ceremony; a Pagan Celtic hands fasting.

So why should I care? If I advocate freedom of belief why does the closed minded attitude of others matter? Maybe as I see it in myself and this scares me, sometimes walking the walk is much harder then talking any talk.

Do I need to talk it through with the people I feel will be most judgemental on the day about what the meaning of everything is? People who have bothered to get to know me know who I am and will understand. These are the people who would not have cared if I wore black on the day.

And really when it all comes down to it; if they cannot be bothered getting to know who I am why should I let their opinions bother me?

Also realised; Topic- being fired for trumped up charges still pisses me off. Issue - the grief and the grieving process associated with miscarriage is far from over. Redirection doesn't help.

So; lots to work on.

(Including not caring what others say about me and being hugely self conscious now about being dull. If I can look myself in the eye everyday that should be enough; paranoia the fear that anything you say will be twisted into something hurtful by an anonymous person.)

I've been attacked! YES!

Read this very funny rant on TSSH as revealed to me by the Boi; you can find it here. I actually don't read it anymore... yep. I boycotted a site because I didn't like their treatment of others.

They then decided to misquote me; which is fine. That's their right. I found the attack very funny which is why I am linking to it.

What I didn't find funny is that I have no right to defend myself as I am not "subscribed" to their site. People if you don't want honest feedback then subscription makes sense. So; as is my right as a "dull and turgid" person I chose to retort here.

The "saving one person at a time" intro comment is meant as a tongue in cheek dig at myself. Yes, I do want to make a difference... and yes that could be perceived as dull.

I do volunteer work with the "Less fortunate" in our community. I work in an industry where making everyday count is what matters and I am studying to help others over come the mental health issues that plague one in five in our society. I have run for Federal Parliament for the Democrats on the basis that they have the better policies surrounding health care and education. Yes, I have causes. WHO DOESN'T?

Next point: I've been diary writing online in one form or another for about more than a decade now (started in 1994 at Uni in Bendigo, no I cannot find the links to put them here.), so the "month old" comment is more evidence of not getting facts right. Right to expression in any creative form does not exclusive belong to legal experts, computer geeks or journalists, nor does it come from having used a forum longer than others.

A retaliatory attack on me was fair; if I respond to others for being petty then I expect a retort. To do so in a way that does not then allow people to respond or defend themselves is juvenile. What next; pull my pigtails and run away? Stick your tongue out and go nerne nerne nerner?

I am however assuming it was a tssh poster, or reader, who posted a very offensive reply to one of my previous posts under the name "Penis", which I removed because family read this. Otherwise I would not have censored that comment. The advantage of blogging is free speech.

Not free attack because someone has a different view to you; but free speech. I didn't attack you guys; I just disagreed with what was said by you and advocated a boycott. I didn't make libellous comments, I didn't disagree with your right of reply over someone's comments directed at you. I just felt it was being taken way too far and thought that if people who were offended didn't read your stuff then it might fade away. Sounds reasonable to me. If you were a company I'd recommend not buying your products, if you were a country I wouldn't visit you. If you don't like my rants, my expression of self, then feel free to boycott me; I cannot say I care.

So how about I give you something legitimate to use in your attacks?

I don't write for others; but I will admit I try to moderate my style so others can read it. If I want to voice an opinion publicly I'll phone talk back radio or post to anothers journal. Anything I write here is as much an expression of self as it is a public forum. No ones life is full on excitement. I could resort to attacking others for a blog; but this goes against beliefs I hold.

BTW The Boi suggested that I don't link the article in as it "just empowers them", if I don't though it makes me as weak as you. (Are you going to launch an attack on him now too?)

So: my "Dull and turgid" little "month old" blog is here for those who want to read it.

To everyone else; thank you for taking the time to read my rants, I'm sorry you didn't enjoy them, but hey; like you I do this for me and so that those I care about know what I am up to. You don't need to return; but please, if you feel like you want to attack me; do it openly, here. Don't hide it on a site I don't read.

Additional bit: it was pointed out that they attacked again over a post that was on procrastination; if I am so repugnant why don't they do to me what I have done (until this date) to them and IGNORE ME. This reminds me of the vitriolic flame wars at Uni. They too were pointless, anonymous and childish. They also had fall out beyond the immediate circle of those under attack. As a friend called to say, after reading all of this; "Hey, if they've taken that much offense you've obviously reflected back something they don't like in themselves." I just want to know why if I am so dull they keep returning?

Amongst the second attack was a mention in a comment about me posting an email rather than forwarding to everyone in my in box; They're now attacking a person for promoting cancer awareness? Seriously. I must say I am looking forward to an in box clogged with the "champagne" that keeps spewing forth from tssh readers. And yes, I am aware that the two linked blogs are very similar; did you even read the intro on "Crayons"?

Lives people; they are not that expensive; go get your own and then you won't need to be bored by mine.

OK, back to ignoring that they exist.

Saturday Six; Saturday Saying. #1

I thought I'd invent my own meme. I want it to reveal things about who I am; or who ever is doing it. I also love quotes and sayings so I thought I'd combine them. The first one I am going to try for is a positive spin; especially after crashing from manic o depressed in such glorious fashion last night about 23:30. So;

6 positives achieved this week and a saying that is positive.

If I get interest I'll explore that thing called code and begin linking in; hey this might become blog #3 in the Fur range, journal type thing number 5 for the author.

(Note to self:When did I start writing in a way intended for others to read and not just as a diary for myself? I mean, I want to be published one day but like this? *Shrug*)

Positive things:

1 We got a new phone so we can contact people without problems, and they can call us.

2 My sister liked the dress that I have chosen out for her; I just need to get size sorted.

3 The invites were sent and we have gotten some responses.

4 Only three essays, two exams and two rpls and I've finished my course; and I got the additional 5RPL information handed in to the person it needed to go to this week.

5 I made someone happy through a random act of kindness; I gave a lecturer an anonymous chocolate bar "chocolate fairy" style. Doing it anonymously bought me more joy then all the thanks in the world; if the few people who knew hadn't told it would of been better.

6 I was linked by one of my favourite bloggers; miss Politics; on her site. Not even the Boi has done that yet. I also think it's cool he gets more hits through me then in any other way. Small smile.

Andre Gide:
Only those things are beautiful which are inspired by madness and written by reason.

Icehouse Icehouse

This is the cover art from Icehouse by Icehouse. It pictures the place mentioned below rendered by an artist.
I wonder if they lived there?

For those who have just read Crayons; or may be about to; these are the lyrics to the song I refer to;

It's always cold inside the ICEHOUSE
Though the rivers never freeze
There's a girl outside the ICEHOUSE
I can see her clearly though the trees
And now she's dreaming of a new love
And she hopes he'll be there soon
But she's got so long to wait for him
Because he needs another year to get there
There's no love inside the ICEHOUSE

The devil lives inside the ICEHOUSE
At least that's what the old ones say
He came along time ago
He came here in the winter snow
Bow it's colder every day
But she's still dreaming through the summer
And she's hoping through the spring
She says she's got no time for winter nights
She doesn't notice as the days grow colder
She can't remember getting any older
There's no love inside the ICEHOUSE

And now she's dreaming of a new love
And she hopes he'll be there soon
She says she's got no time for winter nights
She doesn't notice as the days grow colder
She can't remember getting any older
There's no love inside the ICEHOUSE
There's no love inside the ICEHOUSE

At the moment I don't feel like I am outside the Icehouse (a psychiatirc hospital in Sydney) I feel like I might be stuck in the Icehouse. Sometimes the course triggers stuff in me that I don't want to own. I will not hurt myself but I am at risk of hurting others with my words and thoughts.

I wish I had the car so I could drive to a hug. It will wait; I probably just need to sleep.

I promise I won't hurt myself. I promise.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Breast Cancer Awareness.

I thought this was important. It's from a letter sent to me by a college friend.

woman is walking the World for Breast Cancer . Please pass her on so that she can reach her destination. Say a prayer for all those who are affected by this terrible disease. She's walking around the world - via e-mail!! Pass it on so she can get there! Please hit your forward button, so the women stays animated.

Y * 6 *Y

Please tell ten friends to tell ten today! The Breast Cancer site is having trouble getting enough people to click on their site daily to meet their quota of donating at least one free mammogram a day to an underprivileged woman. It takes less than a minute to go to their site and click on "fund free mammograms" for free (pink window in the middle).
This doesn't cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate mammogram in exchange for advertising.
Here's the web site! Pass it along to people you know.

It finished with : AGAIN, PLEASE TELL 10 FRIENDS TO TELL 10 TODAY meaning to forward it via email; I don't like clogging in boxes no matter how important I think something is. I also thought this might reach a wider audience. Vanity? Maybe.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Procrastination: Mastering the Art Form.

You Scored 55% Correct

You are a solid child of the 80s
You'd never confuse Tiffany from Debbie
And while you may not know Prince's first #1 hit
You know every word to Little Red Corvette

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.
But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

You Are Grape

You are bold and a true individual. You are very different and very okay with that.
People know you as a straight shooter. You're very honest, even when the truth hurts.
You are also very grounded and practical. No one is going to sneak anything by you.
People enjoy your fresh approach to life. And it's this honesty that makes you a very innovative person.

You Will Die at Age 88

Congratulations! You take good care of yourself.
You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

You Are a Glazed Donut

Okay, you know that you're plain - and you're cool with that.
You prefer not to let anything distract from your sweetness.
Your appeal is understated yet universal. Everyone dig you.
And in a pinch, you'll probably get eaten.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

You Are 28% Obsessive

You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control.
Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life.

You Are Lisa Simpson

A total child prodigy and super genius, you have the mind for world domination.

But you prefer world peace, Buddhism, and tofu dogs.

You will be remembered for: all your academic accomplishments

Your life philosophy: "I refuse to believe that everybody refuses to believe the truth"

You Are a Coy Flirt

You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.
What Kind of Flirt Are You?

OK, better actually do some homework now.....

Or I could just wait for the Boi to get home and watch House....

Lust quotient

Your Lust Quotient: 77%

You are a very lustful person - and it sometimes gets the better of you!
You know how to hold back, but you hardly ever do.

Tuesday Twosome cont.

1. The perfect autumn day and what activities you enjoy.

Perfect Autumn day: warm (low 20's), slightly overcast, picnic at the park. Dinner in front of TV with movies. Cuddling up with the Boi. Just basically time spent with the Boi not doing anything huge, just being together.

2. Two things about yourself that make you different from everybody else:
My use of language; my eyes.

3. The last time you laughed really hard and why:
Reading Calvin and Hobbes the other day I laughed so hard I couldn't breath.

4. Two items of clothing that best represents who you are:
My burgundy Hippy style dress; it's long, flows nicely and is a little bit sexy while being totally not revealing. My tiny T's, they let me say what I want without it being too forceful (and as the Boi says; they make my breasts look good; hey, we can all be shallow when we want!)

5. Yourself as others see you and how you see yourself:
I see myself as slightly too curvaceous, seriously insecure but learning to love the image in the mirror. I am spiritual and sensual, sexual while not being cheap. I'm Gothic, a Hippy, a Boho Chic, a Beatnik, politically aware while being totally oblivious to how things run, ethically conscious while advocating each their own but do no harm. A witch, a bitch, bisexual, conservative but out there; loud and proud but hiding my real self.

Others; I don't know. These are some quotes from a survey I did for my counselling course:

your strength of character - you are always you - you don't feel the
need to pretend to be something you are not just to fit in with the
people you are with. This is in no way compromised by dressing down when
you do democrat stuff or visiting parents, in fact its heightened IMO
(humble or otherwise).

your intellect - you are highly intelligent, well read and you have an
amazing ability to retell information in your own way, which makes it
not only interesting to listen to, but also attainable to the less
bright of our society who need this information.

you are so easy to talk to and non judgemental.
have always found you innately easy to talk to and never judgemental at

your trustworthiness and discretion - I always know that if I entrust
you with something that is personal or that is a secret, that it wont go
any further add to that your ability to always find the right thing to
say to smooth something over when trusted information has been let out,
out of turn.

you are fun
Or this by a former Boi;

You have a deep commitment to your friends and family. You really know
how to look after people. You would make a top notch nurse because of
that. They don't have to be people you know, but with people you know
you take that caring to the next level.

I think that anything else I'd say would come back under this umbrella.

Oh, but you're smart. You're poetic. Passionate. Completely untethered
by what the crowd thinks you should do. This IVF thing shows great
bravery too.
You're also really cute :)
A family perspective:

Good Listener.....True Friend...... Amiable.........Willing to give a
hand.............. Patient........Able to put up with a lot
(family).... are
but a few that come to mind
So: that sees me out for today's Tuesday Twosome; a day late, hey, I was busy!

Fear and Love.

A wise woman once said to me; How can you expect to change the world in a positive way when you use language that reinforces negativity? I am trying my hardest to change my language rom the negative to the positive but sometimes it is harder than you would think.

As our farmers face droughts that might mean primary industry in this country may end up on life support; while our Government supports trade relations with a country that undercuts our primary producers with lower quality food; as our troops remain in countries under false pretexts; as a neighbouring country plays with bombs inthe name of freedom; as the right to life lobby launch yet another attack on my ovaries and how I decide to use them; as stemcell research becomes demonised by the same people; as children starve, are abused, are abandoned and die alone; as the same happens to the elderly; I struggle to find a positive voice.

So as we approach Beltane; All Hallows eve, All Souls Day, and the moving in to one of the most spiritual times on most religious callenders I ask that the Gods and Godesses; who ever they are, whatever they look like; remind their followers that the central message of all belief is love.

I am not against America; I am for Australia.
I am not against the gun owners; I am for a world where we don't need them.
I am not supporting terrorists; I am supporting the soldiers.
I am not advocating burying heads in the sand; I am shouting from the roof tops that we need truth not propaganda.

Seems I'm not alone.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Monday meme; day 7!

This one is from Monday's a Bitch. I think this might see my mini challenge to myself out.

1. If you could have a view of anything you wanted from your bedroom window, what would you choose?
The beach, probably the Middle Brighton beach to be more specific. It has the melbourne skyline in the backround. St night it is gorgeous. I also liove watching storms come in over water.

2. Have you ever tried Red Bull? Did you like it?
Yes. No.

3. Is there anything that you are embarrassed to go out and purchase?

4. Do you like amusement park rides? Are high adrenaline rides preferable, or do you prefer the mellow ones?
Some. Not high adrenaline ones. I like mellow ones, like the Matador, but cannot stand ferris wheels or roller coaster; hieghts and disconnection from sitting 100% on seat respectively.

5. Do you tend to be more attracted to people (romantically or for friendship) who are similar to you or very different? What sorts of differences in your personalities might attract you to a person?
I'm attracted to the things in others that lie beneath the first initial impression. If the person is intelligent then I am likely to associate with them, useless cultural knowledge a bonus. Geeky? Then asl. Curvaceous? Bonus! My friends are all so diverse that I don't know what attracts me to them overall.

I'm turned on by brains more then body type, but like guys to be a little cuddly and taller then me. The only negative about the Boi is he could be about five inches taller so I could rest my head more comfortably on his chest. That's about my only precursor; after that it comes down to how personalities mesh, and beliefs.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Sunday Meme

Todays Meme idea was tken from: The Write Coast
It's called Death takes a vacation; and is a tribute to Halloween. OK, so a harvest festival should be celebrated in Australia in April, around Easter. Still, I liked this. So here is Sunday.

  1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
    As much as I'd like to say a child of a politician to make the politician realise what they are doing to all those others I can't. Same with a gun enthusiasts family member. Probably someone like Paris Hilton for the "role model" she portrays but that would make her a martyr.... so I don't know.
  2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
    The Corrs for crimes against Irish music and covering great songs really badly. What they did to REM's Everybody Hurts was attrocious.
  3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
    The guy who fired me from my last full time job on the day I was meant to go in for a D&C associated with a miscarriage. If my flow hadn't started I would of been fired on an answering macchine. I'd also do it for the trumped up reason he gave.
  4. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What kind will you make?
    Good quality basil pesto, baby spinach, char grilled capsicum, char grilled mushrooms, vegetarian cheese (nimbin for preference) ona high quality gluten free full grain bread, toasted.
  5. The Door to the Other Side has opened, and Death appears. But surprisingly, Death is a pretty cool entity and is in a fantastic mood, so it offers to return the friend/family-member/person, etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
    My maternal grandmother whom I never knew. I always wanted grandparents and think she would be the one I'd chose; I have so many questions about my mother as a child...
  6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
    Susan Sarandon or Alan Rickman... maybe Janeane Gaarofalo or Kevin Smith... If the boi was allowed to watch but not touch Charlize Theron or Reese Witherspoon. *Evil smiley goes here*
  7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who do you pick?
    As a teenager I would of said Iva Davies, but now, hmmm, the guitarist and writer of Eskimo Joe; Kav Temperley; as much for his creative side. It's the whole intimacy tripple for me with him, if he's busy then Tim Freedman.
  8. Now that you’ve slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
    Books; the latest 2 Terry Pratchett books, Where's my cow? and Wintersmith. If I had change I'd get the 3rd in the D.W. Science series.
  9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
    New York, or the Orkneys. One because I am so curious about it the other for further research in to my family history.
  10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Now that you are in the new location, what are you gonna do?
    New York: A little piece of art from a Soho artist or a Broadway show. Orkney: furthering the genealogy or tourist bits about the Old Witch.
  11. The Fairy Bartender appears and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. It is … ?
    Black Russian or Cosmopolitan.
  12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go to any time in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
    Before I saw worst jobs in history I'd have gone back to the dark ages and learn about real paganism. Since then the late 1960's, to Haight Ashbury in San Francisco. I'd spend the time enjoying the free love, the free expression, the psychadelia and see the reality of a movement that has strongly influenced me.
  13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
    First; do no harm.
  14. You accidentally eat some radioactive pumpkin. It was good, and what’s even cooler is that it endows you with the super-power of your choice! What’s it gonna be?
    Persuasion; you could use it for so many things.
  15. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what’s the premise?
    World of Wicca; it's a half hour show about the history and evolution of witches and witchcraft; exploring common mythconceptions, the politicising of the feminine power and the bastardisation of stories to demonise the strong woman; the spin off wuold be Fairy stories; why Disney should be disembowelled. It would look at where fairy tales came from and how they also changed, with a section on nursery rhymes and sayings.
  16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
    Pray that they speak English and are open for a talk; I have so many questions for them.
  17. Your house is on fire! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the item?
    One? The hard drive of the computer as it has so much stuff on it, photoes, stories, histories, copies of documents, etc.
  18. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive pumpkin you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?
    Jules Verne; and I'd take him to Cape Canaveral or where ever they do the space stuff to see what he has inspired.
  19. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
    My first kiss with the Boi. As TMBG say; "I want another first kiss"
  20. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
    Being raped.
  21. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But … you can move to anywhere else in the world! What country are you going to live in now?
    Canada, Eire, New Zealand or The Orkneys. Don't know.... can the Boi come too?
  22. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be?
    As long as I haven't been banned from every single chocolate bar; I don't drink much anymore (thus the name of the blog) so... The Kitten Club in Little Collins, great Jazz and Swing music.
  23. The Grim Reaper has arrived to escort you to The Other Side. But since Death is pretty cool and still in a good mood, it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bounce. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour?
    Spend it with the Boi, saying Goodbye and doing stuff. Let him know I love him, and will be back to haunt him.
  24. What’s your theme song?
    Alway's a woman; Billy Joel. She; Elvis Costello. Just Like A Woman; Bob Dylan. But most likely Torch The Moon; The Whitlams. Except it's not a Frida Kahlo poster on my door... more likely MC Escher, Dali or something cartoony that has caught my imagination.
OK, so that is a rather long Sunday one; full of gloriously vague answers that reveal more than a single choice would. Bring on Monday.

Weekend meme

Random 10 - Week 75
10 songs that sum up your weekend...or were on your weekend playlist...and one picture that relates back. (oh, and if you feel like it, tell us why you picked the songs you did)
The picture shows how I feel in my body at this time almost perfectly, I definitely feel more curvy then she looks. The song choices reflect aspects of my emotional state, where I am now developmentally and also offers a snap shot of whats going on in the moment.

1) Everybody Want's To Work: Uncanny X Men; The next line is "No, no, not me." but sadly I do need to work, I just need a regular job that lets me not work the days I am at school. The Boi and I have written an application so that might happen.

2) Hanging On The Telephone: Blonde; After weeks of a faulty phone we purchased a new one today! Which meant I could call my parents and check how they were.

3) Black Fingernails, Red Wine: Eskimo Joe; I love the song (Der....) but for obvious reasons it's relevent to my weekend. I'm also an old Goth so I get all nostalgic at times for chipped black fingernails and yellow stains. The song's on the TV lots lately as Eskimo Joe are featured at the Arias.

4) American Idiot: Green Day; Our "left leaning" ABC has programmed all the songs from the US elections protest CD, I have the Australian version. The idea was to get younger voters to think and vote to conscience on the war and other things. The Aus version has my fave line "It's 11-9 where I come from." It highlights how Americanised our cultre can be.

5) Rhiannon; the Dance: Fleetwood Mac; LISTEN TO THE LIVE STEVIE NICKS VERSION. The lyrics are great they tell of a guy who is in love with a witch and the bond they have after all their time together; at least that is what I hear. I also have this one on what they call high rotation at the moment. And he still cries out I love you....
Rhiannon rings like a bell throu the night
And wouldnt you love to love her
Takes to the sky like a bird in flight
And who will be her lover

All your life you've never seen a woman
Taken by the wind
Would you stay if she promised you heaven
Will you ever win

She is like a cat in the dark
And then she is the darkness
She rules her life like a fine skylark
And when the sky is starless ... and so on...

6) Shit! This is proving harder then I thought..... What's up Pussy Cat?: Tom Jones; One of our cats has been throwing up partially digested cat food, so I think the choice is explanatory.

7) So Far Away From Me: Dire Straits; Where the Boi is. Till the morning at least.

8) Do you think I'm sexy?: Rod Stewart; Hormones are going wild at the moment. Also something else going on. I have been seriously scoped on more then one occasion over the past three days. It's not even a full moon, I know I want to dress sexy, I'm highly aroused for no real reason (Hell, I saw a vid of GWB and thought maybe.... so something weird is happening, TMI? Sorry.) but guys aren't that susceptible to a woman in heat are they? Maybe I should use "Woman In Love" by Babs instead. (Ok, soon I'll have to deny knowing any of the songs inthis bit.)

9) Your Racist Friend: They Might Be Giants; The closer the day comes for the wedding, the more I hear this song in my head. It's not only the racism I fear, but the sexism, the religionism, the ismism.... the song is a great song in it's own right. Not their best; I'd argue New York City for that. It's also one of the more obscure songs on my list so the link should help.

10) The End: The Beatles; Because it's the end of my day, this list, a lot of things. Also for the lyric "The love we make is equal to the love we take." I don't know, I'd like to think we make more love then we take. Sadly I think the Beatles meant a global average.

So, a very long and colourful weekend meme. Sunday and Monday to go and I'll have legitimately done 7 in 7.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Derek and Clive; because what we need now is laughter.

For the Derek and Clive fans out there; checkout MelbourneGirl. Two of the funniest most gloriously offensive bits I have seen in some time... you know you want to; GO HERE!

I will admit to not being a huge Dudley Moore, but Peter Cook rocks! his priest in Princess Bride... ROFLMAO! (Oh shit... I've hit nerdy white girl territory.)

For an even bigger hit of D&C try You Tube.

Saturday meme

OK; I've done one over at Red Crayon. It's a Saturday Photo Hunt.

The one for here is taken from Amandarin. The answers as always are my own.

What were you doing one second ago?
Selecting a colour for the printing of my answers.

What were you doing an hour ago?
Reading blogs and avoiding doing the housework.

What were you doing yesterday?
I was sitting in classes all day for my Counselling course, followed by some photography around Moo, some time with the Boi and enjoying good food.

What were you doing a month ago?
Exercising to lose weight for IVF purposes. Working on assignments.

What were you doing a year ago?
Looking for a business to buy and go in to with the Boi.

What were you doing five years ago?
Working long hours, slowly killing myself, destroying a relationship.

What were you doing ten years ago?
Kicked out of University in Bendigo. Beginning to self destruct. Moving in with Omen. Shutting everyone out from my life emotionally. Entering a new scene where I found the real me. (Finally felt allowed to express my inner self with out to many fears of reprisals. Strangely the reprisals that happenend then are stil happening in a different way today.)

Who would you like to tag?
I wouldn't. If people want to be tagged though then consider them done.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Friday Meme (and a new blog)

I've decided to make things easier and am now putting all creative expressions; photos, prose, poetry and pictures; into a new blog. This is partly because the Wordless Wednesday stuff took up more space then I wanted it too, but it's also so I can experiment with html and appearance without losing things that in the big picture mean more.

Now; Today's Meme challenge: Stolen from the Badger.

1. Three things that scare me:
The thought of my father dying.
Getting on the down escalator.
Fundamentalists of any faith.

2. Three people who make me laugh:
George Carlin
Terry Pratchett
Paul McDermott. (Rowr!)

3. Three things I hate the most:
Needing to exercise and modify eating habits to lose weight.
Paying twice as much for wheat free/ Gluten free products.
Size 6 sales assistants that look at you like your Martian because you're a size 16.

4. Three things I don't understand:
Wheat glucose syrup in products; also wheaten corn flour and the need to make almost every vegetable protein substitute from glutenous products.
Hi-5, and why they are so popular with anyone who is not a thirty year old male.

5. Three things I'm doing right now:
Drinking coffee.
Wearing a sarong and a skimpy mesh t-shirt.
Listening to the TV on in the background.

6. Three things I want to do before I die:
Publish a book of poetry that sells more then fifty copies.
Have a child.
Run my own business doing creative things; cards, soaps, crafts.

7. Three things I can do:
Make others feel good about who they are.
Bake a sponge from memory.
Remember useless stuff.

8. Three ways to describe my personality:
As supplied by The Boi;

9. Three things I can't do:
Lose weight easily, or motivate myself to exercise.
Blow my own horn, or ask for favours.
Use a fire arm.

10. Three things I think you should listen to:
The White Album; the Beatles.
Rumours: Fleetwood Mac.
My mother; someone has to and I don't see why it needs to be me.

11. Three things you should never listen to:
Anything sung by the Corrs.
Anything said by John Howard and the Liberal party.
Anything that is considered a Dogma.

12. Three things I'd like to learn:
Tai Chi.
How to make my own candles, soaps, beauty products, etc.
To sing well.

13. Three favorite foods:
Hot chips with tomato sauce.
Passionfruit yoghurt; good quality, not Yoplait.
I used to love a Vegetarian Laksa and Spring Rolls but I can't eat them anymore.

14. Three beverages I drink regularly:
Cinnamon Latte; From Hudsons.
Coffee; Timor Blend Fair Trade.
Tea; herbal, decaf (Twinings) or fair trade (Scarborough Fair.)

15. Three shows I watched as a kid:

Danger Mouse.
Cities of Gold.
My Secret Valley.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Steal This Post Meme Thursday.

I stole:

Steal This Post Thursday Meme

From: Angela who got this idea from Michele, who stole it from Ethel.
Here are the directions:

"Go to Wikipedia and do a search for your birthday (day and month only, exclude the year).

Post three facts, two births and one death on your blog including the years."

Three facts:

1460 - Wars of the Roses: Battle of Wakefield.
1879 - The Pirates of Penzance is first performed (Paignton, Devon, England).
1948 - The play Kiss Me, Kate opens for the first of 1,077 performances.Two Births:

1865 - Rudyard Kipling, British writer, Nobel Prize laureate (d. 1936)
1942 - Michael Nesmith, American singer and musician (The Monkees) also: 1945 - Davy Jones, English singer (The Monkees) (Half the Monkees on my birthday!)

One death:
2004 - Artie Shaw, American jazz clarinetist, composer, and bandleader (b. 1910)

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

My very first Wordless Wednesday, with very wordy explanation.

My Dad, about 64, at Lake Victoria in Gippsland, Victoria, circa 1990.
I like this because it captures his sense of humour as well as one of my happier teenage moments; which I didn't realise was while I was going through it.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Presenting... Digger Alexander

Watching "The Closer" tonight reminded me of a thing that used to happen in college. It's the Pornstar name question.

My first pet was a mongrel called Digger. We lived in Alexander Ave. I would of been Digger Alexander.

Just for posterity.... now it's out there.

Tuesday Twosome #2.

Choose and explain…

1. Shower or Bath; Bath, you can luxuriate and realy relax, the book you're reading doesn't end up as pulp, it doesn't dilute your coffee or make your GF Cookies soggy.

2. Comedy or Drama; Comedy, everyone needs to laugh more.

3. Coffee or Tea; Coffee when tired, Tea when trying to get fit. So normally Coffee.

4. Fiction or non-fiction; Depends on the mood; currently I am reading Bloodline of the Holy Grail which is fascinating (comparisson between the Bible and the original texts in relation to mistranslations especially) and I've just reread Bill Bryson's books on linguistics but normally I enjoy a good fiction that I can lose myself in; see profile.

5. Television or Movies; Movies; unless it's one of the "Junl food equivalent" shows I watch, like the CSI stuff, NCIS, Gray's Anatomy, House or Quiz shows. Mind you atm am loving Mythbusters being back on and hating Rockwiz being repeats.

7 Themes in 7 Days

I've noticed that different days have themes, so my goal for this week is to link to at least 7 different themes for each day and participate. It's a way in which I can mindlessly blow of steam. My challenge will be finding ones that are PG.

This is Sunday, Monday and today.

Sunday: Name your top seven favorite flavors of soup.
I'm vegetarian and also have a gluten intollerance. This might be tricky. Most of the soups listed are home made:
Pumpkin Soup made by the Boi
Cauliflower and Leek Soup that I make
Spring Vegetable Soup made by my Dad
Corn Chowder as made by my Sister
"Let's just use up the old vegies" Soup as made by me
Vegan Hot and Sour soup
Tomato Soup, from a can, Hienz I think is safe, uses tapioca not wheat or barley.

Monday: Today's theme is Meet A Friend For Lunch Day. Guess what? You get to invite some musicians for a lunch at your favorite restaurant!

First, tell us where you're going and what kind of food they serve.
Soul Mamas in St Kilda. They serve Vegetarian and Vegan food that is so yummy.
Next, choose one person for each category to invite to lunch. They can be alive or not-so-alive:

A guitar player Niel Diamond A lead singer Stevie Nicks A woman Janene Garofalo A Beatle George Harrison A country artist Patsy Kline The least-famous member of your favorite band.
Phil Small

Tuesday:Top 5 (or possibly 7) Songs with Days Of The Week In The Title
You can find it at: I cannot link it for some reason.
Monday Monday; The Mamas and The Papas or Manic Monday; The Bangles
Ruby Tuesday; The Rolling Stones
Wednesday; Tori Amos
Thursday's Child; David Bowie
Friday On My Mind; The Easybeats or Friday I'm In Love; The Cure
Saturday Night; Cold Chisel or Saturday Night's Alright For Fighting; Elton John
Sunday Bloody Sunday; U2 or Sunday Bloody Sunday; John Lennon.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Screen message

OK.... so this is totally juvenile and really not funny but it made me laugh.

One lady at the place I do volunteer work has a Nokia. The screen shows her network, her location, and the status of the phone (i.e. Locked).

It read "Virgin, Ringwood, Unlocked" which I initially read as "Virgin; Bring wood; Unlocked."

See.... juvenile, not funny, not even clever. It might be funnier if you consider spell check on Blogger has not got Nokia but has got nookie. :)

It made me laugh.

Something we all need to do more.

PS Went to Dr this morning; my toe not broken. HA! *Sticking out tongue and doing the 'I told you so' limping dance at the Boi." (Who wants to be a grown up?!?!)

Yours in total immaturity.

Sunday, October 08, 2006


Once upon a time in Blogger their used to be a gorgeous, sensitive blog by a beautiful person of the pagan persuaion.

This blog had some wonderful ideas, and a rede that better expressed what it is to be Pagan then many that could be found.

Then one day someone encountered this blog and felt her heart and mind being opened, so she bookmarked it.

Upon returning to the bookmark she found that everytime she now clicks on it it becomes an add for thongs, like the ones you wear on your bottom.

So she thought she'd put out a request: If anyone knows where "Thongmum" or "Tragic: Welcome to my world" has vanished to can they give me the link.



Last night I (in the midst of pre passionate encounter prep) managed to walk into the shower corner. You know, the metal bit that sticks out at an inconvenient angle?

My first response was "OW! FUCK!" which got a good response from the Boi. When I could talk I told him what I'd done. Including the overly dramatic "I *short up take of breath* think *sniff* I *sob* broke *wail* it."

Well, I don't know what I did. Two toes bent back in a very ugly way. Only smallest toe was really throbbing. It wasn't broken as I could still manouver it with out use of fingers.

Only thing is, this morning I cannot put my foot down flat. The small toe is half black. I have pains shooting into my foot when not even placing pressure on it.

As a nurse I know better then to let things slide like this. I'm just too embarassed to go down to Emergency (closest thing this area has to a 24 hour clinic), take up valuable time (mine and theirs) to have it checked out... "Excuse me Sister, but my little toe hurts. Can you look at it for me?"

Predictably once the Boi realises that I am in discomfort he will make an appointment for me and make sure I look after myself. I'll do my usual "All Doctors are Fuckwits" rant. He'll make sense in a most frustrating way, and will resolve it all.

Until then... my toe hurts. *sob, sob, pout* :P

(Really gotta learn how to smiley face on this.)

Darth Tater

I don't know how legitimate this is but I think it's cute.

If anyone knows where to buy them can they let me know as I might get the Boi one as a wedding present.

Friday, October 06, 2006

An ill informed rant. (But at least I'll admit it.)

THIS made me sick.

I can just picture the spin doctors sitting around:

Sixteen year old page seduces Republican, taking advantage of his weakness related to his homosexuality.... hold on... 16, that's a bit young... um... we need a scape goat that the punblic won't side with um....

We'll blame the parents :stage mother pushing her child to get ahead. OF COURSE she encouraged her son to recieve sexually eplicit texts from Mr Foley. She probably even helped her son to respond.

But WAIT! NO! It was a set up by the opposition party.... they manipulated the page boys in to seducing Mr Foley.

HOLD ON.... The public are siding with the kids... um... "Who'll look after the children?!?"

I only know what little I've read and heard throught the media. I am not really in a position to take sides or make judgements. In my oppinion though (this is opposed to fact, it's one persons view point), any media organisation that uses such an awful act to not only further victimize the children involved (who at 16 really knows their mind?) but to push a political agenda in the face of such behaviour makes me sick.

Mr Fox Network, I hope your grandchild never has to go through this, another view can be found here.

Me Geek, You Normal.

This is one of the Boi's fave pics of me, just in case people wanted to know what I looked like. It's about 5 years old, but not big change in appearance since then.

Omentoo over at Livejournal recommended this test.

I scored 48.71795%.

This makes me a "Super Geek"

I am so proud.

If I was a bigger geek I would be able to put a link button on this site so people could just push it.


Bare Naked Photo

Thought I might try out for a Half Naked Thursday post.... but still hoping to retain my PG status. Thanks to the Boi for this one. This won't meet the requirements tho. Not mine, not original, etc. For the list go here.

Oh, any younguns reading this the links are a bit M15+, you've been warned.

What ever happend to AO? I liked AO.... *sigh*

Tuesday Twosome: My First Time!

Found this here: Loved it.

1. Humid or Dry


2. Earthquake or Hurricane


3. Flood or Fire


4. Wet or Dry


5. Lake or Beach


Monday, October 02, 2006

Gotta Luv It....

Gonna run you through some logic:

Headache: new glasses that are a fraction stronger.
Bloating: constipation from pain killers associated with D&C
Nausea: stress; new glasses; constipation etc.
Mood Swings: Stress from course, wedding, IVF Considerations
Gas: Pain killers
Constipation: Pain Killers
Feeling overall like crap: Post anaesthetic response
Depressed: Stress
Joint Stiffening: Not exercising for past week
Tiredness: Not taking vitamins contraindicated with antibiotics.

OR: It could all be the GLUTEN in the ANTIBIOTICS that I didn't want to take but thought I should as it would help with the IVF if I got rid of the infection they found during last Pap Smear.

Mebbe I should read ingredients on things and not just rely on the boi to do it for me.


Ectopic Pregnancy

Natasha Stott Despoja

Here's hoping that she recovers swiftly form her ectopic pregnancy.

Lots of thoughts and "prayers" out to her and her family.

Not to get too political.... but....

Any women reading this can I suggest you click on her site; top link; and support what she is trying to achieve for women, pregnancy and stem cell research.

Once again it seems like the Democrats are fighting the good fight while the others are getting the accolades. *SIGH*

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Ford Joke

A man pulled up next to a little girl walking home from school and said "If you get in, I'll give you a lollypop." The girl kept walking. Following along slowly, the man said "Come on and get in the car with me and I'll give you two lolly pops." She kept her eyes on the sidewalk and continued on her way. The man said "Get in with me and I'll give you this whole bag of lollypops!" Finally, the girl turned and said "Look daddy, YOU bought the Ford, YOU ride in it!!!"

Getting Serious About The Craft


So I figure it's time to get serious on a few things.

I realy need to find a person to teach me, about Wicca and the increasing awareness I have. My question is how do I find this person?

Do I advertise in the local peper:

31 yr old Pagan seeks
a coven for purposes
of learning, growing and friendship.
Must love cats.

Do I put it out there and wait? Hmmm... patience, a lesson I am still learning... hmmm

Do I search for the equivalent to an or Google the information and hope it comes together?

I'm going to begin by just putting it out there.

Then we can see what will happen.

Whatever you are, be a good one. Abraham Lincoln

or more aptly for the moment:

William Shakespeare:
To climb steep hills requires slow pace at first.