They're using a Blood, Sweat and Tears song on Medium tonight. You know the one:
I'm not scared of dyingPretty much my view on death and dying in one song.
And I, don't really care
If it' s peace you find in dying
Well then, let the time be near
It continues in the chorus with:
And when I die, and when I'm gone
There'll be, one child born
In this world
To carry on, to carry on
I'm not afraid of my own mortality, I doubt I ever have been.
I'm missing the man my father was already. He has been my anchor for so long that now, even with the support and love of the Boi I feel adrift. Little things I could always talk to my Dad about I cannot talk to him about anymore . He will never be able to assuage my fears about the pregnancy or what life will be like without him in it.
I know you only get handed as much as you can handle but I don't think I can handle anymore.
2 comments:
I'm sorry your dad is continuing to decline. It is incredibly painful process you are going through- I am so sorry that you have to go through this- I'd say it gets better- but it pretty much sucks for a long time and I can say I am here and reading you- and hoping that you have some comfort in knowing you aren't completely alone- and that I have been adrift like you. All I can really do is hold the space and tell you- it's fine to grieve and there is no start or end time for when it will arrive or leave.
Thinking of you during this difficult time.
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