OK: so I've been a little quiet lately.
I have reasons.
Like Morning sickness lasts most of the day and lying down helps more than staring at a computer screen.
Or I didn't know how to describe the contrast in news lately and not sound bitter about what it means.
Lets start with some good news.
Baby's heartbeat was 140 at the ultrasound on Monday. :)
I'm going to be a grand aunt again before I am a mum... two weeks before in fact. :)
I'm getting lots of work, have caught up on two seasons of "West Wing", am eating some great curries and have figured out a way around the finances associated with "Baby means not working." :)
All good things.
My father has a brain tumour, probably won't live long enough to meet my child, is going to have to be admitted to a nursing home as we will not be able to care for him at home (even though this is his wish) and the Boi and I will be moving in to help my Mother cope with all the crap that is going on. :(
All bad things; sort of...
My Father dying is one of my biggest fears. My child/ren not knowing their grandparents ranks right alongside that.
Moving home to my parents place helps us financially and me emotionally as I can at least help, but Dad not being there is breaking my heart. I don't know how my Mum is coping. I think she's more concerned about being alone though as she likes the idea of the Boi and I moving in and has agreed to cats moving with us... well... cat. :(
I've always felt that a life goes in a family and another replaces it. My Dad is such a huge figure it's going to take three babies to replace him. Huge as in amazing and all things positive not huge as in obese.
So anyway. If people don't hear from me it's because I'm busy, moving, pregnant, grieving, numb, crying, vomiting, working, vague and slowly collapsing in to an emotional mess.
Warning people: this may result in some Vorgon quality poetry.
Meanwhile: I expect Mr Bolt to jump on the announcement from the US that Gore's electricity bill is high and he hasn't implemented what he preaches... anyone else think that this is a preemptive strike against Gore in relation to the US elections? Me thinks the Republicans are getting worried. (Moving home means more exposure to the HUN; my parents buy it while the Boi and I are Age readers. Expect some ill informed rants about the quality of journalism as a way of venting emotions that are easier to handle if ignored short term than confronted.)
Did any of that make sense?
If your interested photos related to IVF they are posted over at Crayons out of respect for those that don't want to see that type of things.
For people with my number who read this the phone is metaphorically off the hook till I can cope. Please, don't take offense. I just need a bit more time. It's only been a fortnight and all the news keeps getting progressively worse. I'm also making lots of immediate family calls so the phone is becoming the enemy.